uncertainty

Was exchanging with a friend, and she asked if C was a fun relationship or a serious one.

Both!

I finally see that so many potential dating experiences in the past ended abruptly because one or both parties were trying to define the experience.

For the first time, I am willing to take it one day at a time and let the relationship progress.

I am still having fun, so I am trying not to inject all the seriousness that comes with commitment. Just letting it be.

vulnerability

One reason I love sports so much is that the risks are purely physical.

In relationships, not so easy.

C came back from vacation, and I immediately vented my uncertainty about us. It was probably not the nicest thing to do, but I had to air my anxiety about whether I am finally ready for a relationship.

The conclusion? My life has changed, but I shouldn't be afraid. Having a serious relationship is meant to be at this point. I will embrace it and let things happen as they may.

And I am off to China in 3 days. C will not join. Just myself and another girlfriend. I can't wait. It's going to be a blast. Looking forward to how that experience will change me too!