simple pleasures

When did life get so complicated?

In preparation for my study with Maria the energy lady in September, I decided to scale back my life.

If you don't hear from me, I will just be contemplating.

Time to go back to the simple things, especially spending time by myself.

finding myself

Living in the moment means letting go. If I don't have any expectations, then I no longer have any fears either.

This next phase will be practicing being just me, without worrying about others or let judgments shape me.

It's not easy, as I need confirmation. Still, baby steps as I leap into a new realm.

enlightenment

Sometime after grad school, I lost my sense of self. In an attempt to find myself, I gave endlessly.

The attention to others was fun while it lasted, but my new-found self means carving out more time for myself.

So I'm taking a break from group events. (I feel so much better just typing that!)

This is a time to focus inward, to regroup and to realize big ideas. I can't wait to change!

the answer arrived as expectedly

For a while now, I was wondering what will be next. Last Friday, the answer came to me.

It wasn't quite unexpectedly in that I had a gut feeling all day long. Part of spiritual practice has been focusing on my gut feelings.

Everything all of a sudden made sense, but I had to allow the feelings to surface. I had no idea that despite my claim of being spiritual, I had not accepted my intuition as much as I could be.

It was like the time I didn't pass the bar or the time I quit a job. Those events changed more than my career, but I just didn't know it at the time.

So now when events happen, I am better prepared. Even if I don't quite understand, I allow the answers to surface.

When there is confusion, allow the true meaning to appear. I believe the next step is to wait for more clarity before making my announcement. Stayed tuned.