connection redefined

Lately, I've been meeting men who exhibit signs of cowardliness. I can empathize with the fear of rejection, but that's why all of them barely makes the friend cut.

I have been focusing on hanging out with very accomplished female friends because I am looking for support during this transition period.

I am finally very clear about what I want in every area of my life, so if I have to be rude and be selective with my company, so be it.

It's odd to know now the difference between kindred spirit and someone who is merely passing by. It's a strange feeling to just let some of the connections fade away, but my gut tells me that I must stay focused on my purpose.

all on my own

I marvel at the opportunities life presented of late. To fully enjoy each moment, whether with people or all on my own, I am grateful and humbled by my fortune.

Trekked to downtown to meet up with a friend after her board meeting. Her meeting ran long, so I was able to wonder through downtown and catch up on reading at a bookstore. It is always such a treat to walk through the crowds and feel completely free.

To have zero responsibilities, to not answer to anyone, and not have to take care of anyone else but me... I am finally ready for partnership and the responsibilities of a family, but those events are just not meant to be right now.

For now, I am going to continue to embrace this phase, and continue to hope for love.

almost good news (!)

As much as I long for a partner, it just isn't happening, for all sorts of reason.

I am not sitting at home crying though.

So many good things have happened recently that I feel excited about what's ahead.

I am not sure whether this means that the job is right around the corner, or that I am about to meet the love of my life. All I know is that something wonderful is about to happen!

I got to hone my intuition. It's almost annoying to have it be so vague, especially when it's positive. ;P

no biggie

Funny episode. Went to pick up a used coffee table off of craigslist today. After I talked to the owner and checked out the table, I walked to my car down the street. For some reason, the key fell from my hand to the ground...into the storm drain!

Fortunately, I am all zen now, so this little mishap was not a problem! I called the seller of the coffee table and asked for a hanger. I walked back and picked up the hanger. I went back to the street corner and fished out my key. Okay, this part took a few minutes, but when one is calm, nothing is difficult.

Moral or the story? You never know what's going to happen, but if you know that you can handle whatever comes your way, life is easy.

Today, I drove home with my newfound treasure with pride, and I also learned how to fish a key out of a storm drain with a metal hanger. Ah-ha!

how easy it is

Now that I am free of all expectations, life is completely different.

First of all, I am utterly happy. Although I have been a fairly optimistic person ever since birth, there is a genuine joy in my daily life. Not working helps, but I am quite motivated to start working again. Not sure if it will be a more traditional job or freelance/contract work to start.

It is also easier than ever to not worry. My daily meditation has allowed me to note negative thoughts and catch myself before I start to worry. By being at peace and not think unnecessarily, I just enjoy being in the present. I highly recommend meditation!

The best part about this spiritual journey is the people and opportunities that it attracts. It is easier than ever to meet people and get things done.

Happy Holidays!!