transition

Now that C and I are just dating, we are spending more time apart. I have more time to think about myself once again. Perhaps I am better as a friend/date than a girlfriend b/c I have yet to figure out how to balance my needs against those of other people.

By always limiting time with others, even with my family, I am able to give without resentment.


It's officially summer, with this heat wave. So many things to do, but I am also learning to spend more time with myself and my own thoughts. This is the year that I look inward to myself.

life's like that

Tried to send L some flowers in NY for her b-day. She lives in SF but was in NYC for business.

The flowers didn't make it. I typed in the wrong address. Still, couldn't the delivery person have figured out the address via the hotel name? It was two blocks away!

Oh well. Now she not only thinks that I forgot her b-day, she will barely get to enjoy the flowers as she flies back tomorrow.

I feel lame for trying to do something nice. Sigh...

dive right in

Started my swimming class last night.

Love it! Clean pool, small class size, and incredibly comfortable locker facilities.

I am excited about taking up yet another new sport. At the same time, I am overcoming my fear of water. I had a near-drowning experience as a kid, at my first swimming class, and I had refused to learn swimming.

Over time, the fear of water has been a barrier to having fun. When I was in Brazil, I couldn't go wind surfing even though the water was perfect.

Just another reminder that if I am willing to take risks, the outcome can be very rewarding.