everything we want

Taking a post to express my gratitude.

Everything I have ever wanted has appeared in my life. Material comforts aside, I have found kindred spirits to share amazing experiences.

From family to friends and at time a man, life has only gotten better. By no means is it easier. I definitely put in more effort now than ever, but I enjoy the challenges much more. I love work because it gives me purpose. I love giving to the people in my life because the joy is compounded when bestowed onto others.

What's next? More civic involvement and more creative outlets.

I feel grateful.

cooling period

I suggested to C that we don't talk to each other for a while. After the heated good-bye conversation, heated on his part, I figured he needs to cool off.

He did email me today, hoping to start the conversation. Maybe. I do want to be a good friend, but we both need to move on.

Breaking up isn't easy, and I have had enough breakups to know the drill. Both parties need to transition to start dating other people.

It does get easier. I just have to stay optimistic and as always, follow my intuition.

opportunity

Last night, I went to a monthly citizens advisory committee meeting. This CAC is for a redevelopment area. I used to be on the board of the CAC but resigned when I changed jobs. I continue to go to the meetings b/c I learn so much, especially the political process and how to get things done in an under-served neighborhood.

One topic that continue to plague this community is the lack of jobs for its residents, especially young men who come out of jail sentences.

I felt the frustration of the workforce program staff who came to request jobs from the redevelopment effort. It is sad that in a city of so many multi-million dollar mansions and condos, this neighborhood has to struggle so much.

I was more motivated than ever to perfect my skills and continue to work in land use. I have been lucky and worked on many interesting redevelopment projects. I hope that one day I can come back to a thriving community rather than a meeting where we spent the first 5 minutes in silence for the teenage boy who was shot in school that afternoon.

single again

Told C last night that it's time we go our separate ways.

I had to do the right thing, and I'm glad I waited until I was sure.

Thanks to everyone who lent a ear.

Moving on.

reminder

Climbed on Sunday. Took it easy on the 4 climbs.

The satisfaction of being good at something changed my mood for the rest of the weekend.

Between all the challenges with work, swimming, home owners' board, and the new relationship, I haven't felt that sense of satisfaction for a while. Having been reminded, I am aiming to get to that point in every area.

Having doubts about C was all right. The unknown will become known, and I will move forward, with or without him.