Thursday, June 5, 2008

dark day

It was a frustrating day at swimming yesterday. I struggled with some of the drills and felt that I did not progress as much as I expected to. With a sub (the 3rd time in the 5 week class), it was even more difficult to improve.

To make matters worst, I came home feeling unaccomplished about other areas of my life. My professional life and personal life are better than ever that I want to do even more.

It's ironic, the more I do, the more that I want to achieve because I want to push the boundary of what's possible.

I am more determined than ever. The answer to being frustrated is to push on further. Persistence is the tool to realize my passion for a full life. Onward!!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

love and marriage

Love and marriage are two very different things.

Sometimes two people who love each other cannot be or stayed married - see my first marriage.

Other times people who don't love each other stay married - see many public figures and their spouses.

Fortunately, most couples I know, especially my parents, are married and in love.

I was struggling with my relationship with C because I love him but am not sure about our potential as a married couple.

Thanks to lots of supportive friends, I was able to vent all my doubts. Once I stopped all the negative thinking, things resolved themselves. I don't know what's going to happen, but I do know that I am in love. Marriage is no longer a major life goal, so why worry about it.

I am happy in this relationship, and that's more than enough.

Life is good.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

working

Saw Sex and the City movie with 7 girlfriends opening weekend. It was a blast! The movie was just like the show, only more fabulous!

Afterwards, I hosted a small gathering for friends at a near by hotel bar. Another good party!

During the night, a friend complained about working Saturday. It was unfortunate, but sometimes work duty calls off-hours.

I am at work today to wrap up some research and a couple of memos. Don't mind at all b/c I like the work. Besides, I had been getting off work early enough to have fun at night. What's a couple of hours over the weekend to give me my lifestyle?