when in doubt, have some fun

As much as I wanted my last relationship to work out, I feel better now that it is transitioning to the friends stage. The stress and the pressure of wanting to make it work ultimately killed the romance. It was hard to let go, but at least we tried.

It's time to rejoice in a good experience.

Perfect timing as I have a relative staying for the weekend. I can't wait to share my life and to have a good time.

I can see how breakups can make people jaded, but I am more hopeful than ever. Life is too precious for us to dwell on what doesn't work. Just accept, change and make magic happen!

go with the flow

I like to dance crazily, but there isn't always room when the clubs are packed. My solution, show up early and be the first one on the dance floor! There is nothing quite like the freedom of having the whole dance floor to myself.

This past Sat night, I was at a friend's b-day party at a club. A couple of friends who wanted to carpool flaked, so it was just me. It wasn't too bad as one of my friends was already at the bar, hanging out with his friends.

Still, the music was getting interesting, and I had to get out there. Rather than wait for my friends or the rest of the b-day group, I just started to jump around. As always, people started to fill up the dance floor. After an hour, the main room was packed, and I was able to greet friends (although quite sweaty).

It was so liberating to just show up on my own and do exactly as I pleased. I feel grateful that I no longer have to worry about what other people think, at least not on the dance floor.

What else is possible if I remove all fears?

moving on

Had lunch with an ex-co-worker who got laid off. The company had a lot of potential when I worked there 3 years ago. However, a sale to a big engineering firm (who has contracts in Iraq) led to the departure of top managers and now, the end of that division.

At that point, I brought in the most money by securing the most number of permit approvals. I asked for a raise and was refused. I made my announcement to leave a day before the top managers left, and that's when things started to spiral downward.

Sometimes things are not meant to be, but one has to enjoy the good moments. I learned a lot at that job, and it was a fun atmosphere before it was sold. Still, it was timely to leave when things were still good, so I have fond memories of that job.

More and more, I am aware of the gut that tells me to reach for more and to be challenged always. Can't wait to see what's next.

precious

Last night, I ran into a past attendee of one of my singles party, and she inquired when will be the next party. It turns out that she met someone at my party and dated that person for 4 months. The relationship ended because the guy wasn't ready to settle down.

Or did it?

One reason I stopped hosting the parties because the men weren't following up. (Well, apparently some did).

Now, I see that the issues are from almost everyone. Being in a couple requires a lot of compromise but also an appreciation for its rarity. If the singles are just more grateful for having someone who is compatible, then there would be a lot less of them.

I am all for being picky, but at some point, finding love requires a leap of faith.

I should know. Working things out with C is turning out better than expected. Who knew it would be better this time around?