be the light

I have always been very public with my life, including with communications breakdown with the latest guy. Rather than trying to hide the ups and downs, I am open about it all because it allows me to move forward peacefully.

Lately, one common theme I noticed in meeting new people (especially the singles) is that the baggage from past breakups and insecurities can be a big part of their identity. The inability of letting go of the past can weight them down.

I get caught up by my past too, but being very open has a therapeutic effect. By telling the story of my boo-boos a few times to different friends, my wounds often heal quite quickly. It does help to have loved ones help laugh off the unexplained events.

The key is to not project negativity on the other parties involved, especially if I don't understand. Other people's decisions, words, and actions are for me to accept. Any rejection or projected anger/frustration only fuel the negative energy.

It isn't easy to be uplifted and let the unpleasant feelings wash through. Still, having had so much practice dealing with challenges in my professional and personal lives does make life a lot easier.

I never expected to be unemployed and single, but life has gotten much easier because I have found my peace.

sad day

Being intuitive can be a curse, especially when it comes to awareness of rejection.

Hit that first wall with the new guy. Can't be helped, but I have to accept.

A bit sadden by the possibility of the end. At least my feelings will guide me into handling what's next...or what will not be.

Sigh...

being present

One of the key concepts from my spiritual practice is to live in the moment. To be present is to take the time to enjoy focus on one thing at a time.

One of the best things about being unemployed is that I am making time for things I once thought too time consuming. I watch a blockbuster for the first time in months because I had a lot of time during my trip to San Diego. It was so leisurely to sit through all the previews.

The notion of wasting time is no longer a concern because I am simply in the moment and allowing myself to be present.

I am making time for people and things although I am planning and doing less. Rather than trying to make time for everyone, I simply make plans when I am in someone's neighborhood or if people contact me first.

There is a certain flow to my days, and I know that everything is truly meant to be.

To live in this moment is to appreciate life as is.