a word about drama

I finally get that the best part of growing older is having the maturity to give.

At some point, my life means less, and it's about caring for others.

Recently, I found many parties with drama entering my life. The point of spiritual practice is to understand and accept. Drama is the opposite of that. Drama is a demand of attention from others.

I stopped being dramatic several years ago, so I am empathetic to why it happens. Still, I also understand that it is the journey for others to find their peace. All I can do is to offer acceptance and positive thoughts, and nothing more.

Hopefully, people will find that the drama disappears and all difficulties and uncertainty will be resolved if we simply give to others. Generosity is the answer to suffering, and joy appears naturally if we just accept ourselves.

I might just move to twitter

Why do some men refer to me by my initials in email? It's like the female version of "DUDE"...

the best movie of the year

Go see Revolutionary Road. It is my favorite movie of the year.

It also captures what I am feeling right now. It's so beautiful that I just want to cry, and that intensity is a constant. There is also an acceptance of that life is precious.

I love it when something makes me feel so alive.

girlfriends

One research I read long ago was that for both men and women, the number one indicator of happiness was their female companionship.

Ever since that small piece of information, I focused on my female friendships. I am always doing things for them and focus just as much on girlfriends as dating men.

Now, thanks to all the support from my female friends, I feel that I can weather a lot more than without them.

Of course, I still long to find a best friend in a male partner, but cultivating my female friendships has turned out to be one of the best investments in life.

always the people

The last three jobs were decided by the people. I wanted to work with the people who hired me in each case, and the lessons from my supervisors were invaluable.

Today, I met with friends of mine who are artists in many mediums. They asked if I can help them with their projects in a marketing/PR capacity. I am working on the proposal to discuss the details with them on Friday.

Regardless of the outcome, I am happy about life because there have always been people to share my professional and personal endeavors.

Also feel very strongly about finding a man this year. It is as if I am finally ready to collaborate with someone on the home front...

acceptance

Read my entry from last January. What a difference a year made. I am still dating guys that are not quite right because I want to stay open-minded.

2008 has been good dating-wise. Will 2009?

One thing that is different this year is acceptance that I will have to be patient in finding the right person. I still feel the possibility of being single forever. It amuses me that I date so many romantics who have little understanding of true partnership.

Am I too old to grow with someone? Am I set in my ways and dating men so set in their ways that a true partnership is mere lip service? I hope not.

I do know that I am happier this year than last, so I must be doing something right, singlehood and all.