Friday, December 19, 2008

baby steps

Talked to the chief of staff for a newly-elected state legislator who is looking for local staff.

I am over-qualified; the position would require a 70% paycut.

I will turn down the position but plan to meet the chief of staff for a possible volunteering opportunity.

My lifestyle is a responsibility that I take seriously. Having been fortunate enough to afford all the fun, I will not settle in my career.

Ironically, the insistance on being paid for my worth has propelled me forward in my career.

If I have a family, I would not be able to take this latest opportunity either. I feel lucky to be able to enter this world without sacrificing other potential offers.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

new found power

Ever since my spiritual class ended, I found myself being able to read energies. I started to match make friends, and I wonder if all the blind dates will result in a match.

One of the techniques that I use is to still myself (easy to do with daily meditation). Once I am still and sure of myself, it is easy to sense other people and be able to read them. I used this technique in the past to assess my romantic relationships, and that's why I am able to end things before they get ugly. I always know when the guy wasn't aligned with me, so I let them go.

Another skill I rely on is to not expect anything when I am around other people. By being totally present, I can sense people's energies and the emotional needs that they put out.

It's been fun to do the energy readings!

I am also more aware of my own expectations and negative emotions, so it is that much easier to let it all go!!

Monday, December 15, 2008

just when I thought I knew

Met lots of people this weekend. A great week of going out and making new friends. After the entire weekend, one guy in particular stood out. I felt something unique when we were talking at a house party, but I didn't think much of it until the end of the weekend.

Late Sunday night, was talking to the host on the phone about him when the guy IMed my friend about me. The guy asked for my number from our friend...and called while I was still on the phone! After an amazing conversation, we made a date for this week.

It's hard to explain these things, but I am trying to be open-minded. This guy is not someone I imagined to be attracted to physically (he doesn't look Asian but is half), and he is younger. Still, I am relying on my intuition to guide me.

Just like the last few dating experiences, it's much easier when I just let my divine self guide me.